Eversince.

ever since you walk outta my heart
the real me has been hiding because we are apart
i tried to make things work for myself
but my heart just wont listen
when i see you everyday walking pass me
my heart beats faster and faster, it just wanna be free
they say followyour heart but i cant
theres so many reasons why,though its not the way i want
if i ever get the chance to start things from scratch
i would take it and in the end we will be the perfect match

Heartless you.

She thinks of you everyday
She misses you in every single way
She told me that you are her first
She loves you more than anyone does
Both of you looked perfect for each other
Everyone started talking about your relationship but nothing to you guys bothers
You both were unstoppable
Your love for each other was so sweet and memorable
The way she tells me about it
I was so happy for her
I always thought you were perfect for her but in the end you still became the jerk
You left her all alone in the darkness
Left her feeling the pain and sadness
You just went fooling around with other chicks
Smoking and drinking with your peeps
Seeing you makes me feel disgusted
Cause you changed so much till i dont regconize you
Now i will never forgive you for breaking her heart too
Someday you will realise it was a big mistake and will regret because you left her without saying goodbye.


written for my babe (littlegirllost)

lying to myself + clueless

im lying to myself that the world will never end,
im lying to myself that everyone is nice and kind and always a helping hand,
im lying to myself that fairytales does really exist and everyone will have their happily ever after,
im lying to myself that life has no sadness,only joy and laughters,
im lying to everyone whenever they ask me who i love and i'll answer them no one,
but deep inside my heart, there is someone!

isit worth it?crying over you,
do you know how much it hurts? if only you knew,
i have to try to face my fears,
which is smiling at you whenever you are near,
dont even know if you think im weird,
maybe you are talking about me behind my back with your peers,
i dont know what else to think,
i hope everything can go according to me but that will only happen when the world is pink!




~wrote this in maths class~ bored bored mah 0_0

♥

the stars are still shining,♥
when my heart is breaking,♥
i dont know what is going on, ♥
but there must be something wrong,♥
i have to solve this mystery,♥
by looking back into history,♥
everytime i think of you,♥
i wished you were doing the same thing too,♥
thinking of me,♥
remembering the time when there was a "we",♥
i cant breathe!♥
without you i just cant live,♥
my heartbeat keep going faster and faster and it cant be stop,♥
sooner or later its gonna pop!♥
everyone ask me to forget about the past,♥
some even say forget bout it fast!♥
i told them to stop forcing me because its impossible,♥
because everytime i see you its unstoppable!♥
my love for you is too strong,♥
why cant you just play along?♥
to make me feel better,♥
i remember writing you the one last letter,♥
that says im sorry we were not meant to be,♥
i 100% regretted writing that! how stupid of me!♥
"you're over him right?right?" they asked,♥
"erhh, yeah!yeah!" i lied because saying the truth will be the hardest task,♥
acting like im actually seriously over you and the past,♥
but inside my heart nothing will be forgotten especially the memories of me and you that will last,♥
how do i say those three words, I LOVE YOU , isit this?♥
yes it is and i really do and now you know it, lastly, this is sealed with a kiss♥

The Apple..

This is an Apple which is not the same like other apples..
this Apple is special,or shall i say "one of a kind"?...
the outside may just look normal to you..
but the inside is the real side of an Apple you never knew..
This is an Apple which have true feelings
The heart cant be cut by anyone,only the true love of the Apple..
This is an Apple...
A very sweet Apple full with hugs and kisses..
A very special Apple that knows how to love..
An apple which needs alot of care and love...
If theres no love the Apple will turn into mixture of bitter,poisonous and sour apple..
A very bitter Apple with tears and a hole..
A poisonous Apple filled with anger and jealousy..
A sour Apple with moody moods...
In the end it'll become rotten and all the hardwork of raising the Apple is gone...
So, if you recieve this Apple means that you are lucky..
Take care of it..dont throw it...love it..and dont let worms grow on it...

enjoy the moment..

I dont want to regret anything that i've done
good or bad i still wont because whats done is done
we'll never know when is the end of the world or everything
so lets enjoy the moments we spent together before theres nothing left
take a deep breath , inhale and exhale, relax and just breathe
we'll hold hands and walk through the bridge of love
when we reach a point we'll realised its not even the end yet
it was just the beginning and we'll keep on moving foward till the end
eventhough we might go seperate ways but at least we know that our hearts was ONE before..
just spending time with your loved ones is the greatest thing about life
feeling the love,giving the love , recieving the love and most importantly appreciating the love..

Swans...

Trying to fold swans
not going to stop till i fold tonnes
im thinking and think while folding
i fold and fold nonstop till i found out the box was full
i realised that i've already folded so much without myself knowing
i guess my mind was in a different world
thinking about you im sure
so now you know that the swans i folded has meanings
and most of it is full of my feelings

please dont go..

What would I do if you leave?
I'd miss you, I believe
That's what I'd do if you leave
So I'm begging you please!
Dont leave me here..
Please stay a bit longer
For I may see you again never
And you leaving isn't for the better
Surely I'd miss you sooner or later
Everyday I miss you more and more
It makes my heart feel so sore
Thinking of the way things were,
I'd like to go back to the times we had before..

You..

If i am stuck on an island forever and only can take 1 person with me i'd take you..
If today was my last day on earth i'd spend my last hours with you..
If there was such thing as forever i would want to be with you forever and ever..
If you let me pick my prince charming among every guys on earth ..i'd still pick you..
If you ask me who i am willing to die for...i'd say you..
I'll go through whatever it takes just to be with you..

ahhh.

Looking at the sky
Its starting to turn grey
Just like my current mood
Sitting here staring into the sky thinking like a fool
The leaves from the tree is slowly falling to the ground
Just like me feeling down...
Thinking of my past ~
Which has already rust..
I take a look at the pretty pictures that we took
Those reminded me about the egg that i boiled without looking into the cookbook
Turns out that the eggs weren't well cooked~
Oppsy, how embarassing but you didnt mind...
And thats what made you shined, in my eyes..
Thats the past , nothing elese to be said..
I know i am very desperate...
But i cant help myself...
You're just like chocolate..
I'm addicted to you...
Dont know what to think...
Have no more clue..

Wish to be anything but me.

I wish i can be a glue
So i can be stuck to you
I wish i can be your mirror
So i will be able to see you everyday
I wish i can be your cup
So you can press your lips against me everyday
I wish i can be your pillow
So i can feel your hugs everyday
I wish i can be your instincts
So i can tell you that your true love is just always there around you
I wish i can be your Cinderella
So i can be with the Prince Charming(YOU) forever and we can live our happily ever after together...

I wish i can be anything but me...

thank you for everything

I just wanna thank you for...

Giving me your heart for a short period of time, I love that you were only mine
Giving me your big warm hugs,I felt so safe just being around your arms which is protecting me from getting harm
Giving me your sweet kisses which just make me misses you more everytime
Holding my hand tight to proof that you will never let go of me so easily
Spenging your times just with me and bringing me to your friends parties,i never felt left out when im with you
Making me happy, just being around you i am able to laugh and smile alot, you just make me feel the happiest, baby
Making me feel what real love is, relationships are not always happy, theres always sad parts like when we fight, and for the first time in my life i cried for a guy because i love him

Last but no least...
Making me able to be myself all the time around you..you made me experience so many types of feelings eventhough not all is good but i still love every moment we spent together..You made me discover the real ME..

Now its all over and its time to let go and say goodbye to the past but i wont because i never want any endings between us. I will keep dreaming of our past and remind myself there used to be a WE...

And i loved you very much and my feelings for you still never changed till now...

i'll be here.

I'll be here if you need someone to listen to your problems
I'll be here if you need someone to keep you away from boredom
I'll be here if you need someone to always tell you the truth
I'll be here if you want me to be and i wont dissapear like other girls do on you *poof*
I'm always with you
No matter where you go
Because you have my heart
A heart that cant be found anywhere else..not even WalMart..
Hope you keep it safe and dont throw it..
Because it's fragile and once it breaks it wont fit..

Dont go...

Im trying to forget
Trying to give you up
I will never regret
But my tears are already filled in a cup..

Still cant let go of your heart
You probably threw away mine
I tried everything to make it better
But it will never ever be fine..

Wondered if you are a playboy
Said that you love me from the very beginning
I fell for your trap and you had me going
In the end , i knew to you im just your old lame toy..

This is too much
Have you ever thought how i felt?
You can say words that can make me touched
You can make my world perfect and my heart would melt

Why cant you make it last forever?
You said i'll be only yours
So just dont go breaking my heart whenever or whatever
Im just waiting for the time to pass hours after hours..

Looking back into the past
I really dont want anything to end so fast!
Theres so many reason for you to stay..Soo many!
Please just stay here beside me baby...

Make me believe in fairytales once again...

rescue me...

Hey boy! Its me!
Why cant you see?
Sitting here silently just waiting for you
Hoping you will come rescue me
From my nightmares that im facing
Hoping you can take me somewhere far far away
Japan! USA! Paris!Or even Norway!
Just not anywhere near here
So we wont have to fear
To be together..
I wont care where we go
I wont care what they'll do
I just want to be back into your arms
Then i can finally feel safe and warm
Please dont keep me waiting
I will keep praying for the day you'll take me out of my nightmares..
And be my Prince Charming....

OUR Love Story.

WRITTEN BY: ME AND THE PRETTY.LITTLE.LOST.GIRL


Hot, cool, pretty, that's how we are,
All the guys treat us like super stars.
Flirting, blushing, crushing on boys,
Treating them just like toys!

In our lives, then you came.
And our lives are never the same.
Around you, i found myself,
You're the most important one,
not health nor wealth.

For the first time, we're seriously in love with someone,
We're obsess over you though we just knew you for 2 short months.

You entered our lives, changed our worlds,
You told us we're not just ordinary girls.
We dont want anything not even pearls.
We just want your heart and your love.

You guys are so lovely,
Made us felt every minute with you is worthy,
We were so innocent,thought you were our prince,
But you're just devils with angel wings.

You walk outta our hearts just like that,
Leaving us here in the dark,
alone and sad...
After all that fun you've had,
You threw us away just like that!

never the same!

Chocolate,Roses,Teddy bears
Things that other guys can get me
But I dont care!
Its never the same without you
Now my dreams willnever come true
Thinking of you everynight
Wishing to turn back time just to erase our fights
I love you, yes i really do!
But you probably dont feel the same way too
Crying my heart out
Trying to control myself from being too loud
I dont want anyone to hear
They'll spread rumors , i fear!
I ask for nothing from you..
I just want you Boo!

Damn.

Life's miserable
Thinking about it makes it more horrible
Listening to the people's laughters while sitting here feeling the sadness
Have no more Ups, all theres left is down
Just so many things to make me frown!
My brain is dead and my heart aches..
It kills to think that the would is changing so fast!..
Or isit me?

Rain

September 1, 2:50AM, raining heavily and a poem struck my mind.

Looking at the rain
Hoping it would take away my pain
Lying down on my bed
Pictures of you flashing thru my head
Hugging my pillow tightly, Imaganing it was you and thinking you would hug me back softly
I still gain nothing by just thinking
Just letting time fly thru me
Trying to sleep to live my dreams..
And whenever i do.. the alarm goes BEEP!BEEP!BEEP!
Back to the real world
Thinking about it just makes me wanna hide
And never to step outside
i know hiding is not going to help me
Just gotta keep moving foward and keep dreaming of who i wanna be.

HIS.

broken love

Im wishing that i never met you
So i wont have to go through all this pain
Im thankful that i've met you because of the something you made me gained
No, its not just friendship, its more than that..its Love..
You made me understand what love is
You made me realised what i lived for..
You made my whole world perfect...
You made me able to just be myself around you...
But then nothing lasts forever
You broke my heart and my world fell apart
Just like that, its all over!
I never wanted this to happen, Never!
But theres nothing i can change
Guess its just meant to bethis way...
OHMYGAWD, how gay! =(

Dreams and Reality

Desperate to stay in my dreams
Fearing to face reality
Dreaming makes me hapy because in there im loved by my honey
Waking up is something scary just like eating posionous berries
Because in reality im just his enemy
If my dreams can come to reality I will never ask for anything else again
I just want to be with him and thats all I ask for
And it came true! In my dreams
How sad,speechless,dissapointing..
Now theres nothing else to be said, all i can do is dream bout him everyday and keep wishing one day dreams will come to reality...

Which is never gonna happen =( because reality can never be planned and dreams will forever stay as dreams...