time to let go?

i can never forget because im in deep love
i wish i can fly up up above
so i can see him from a close view or even miles away..
i wanted to let go
but my heart keep telling me NO!
sometimes he just make me feel more crazy about him
i tried to get a new target, a new aim...
but i can never because my heart only sets on one boy..
though that boy sometimes treat me like a toy...
but i still didnt mind because i love him..
isit worth holding on?
isit worth crying over?
if he doesnt love me anymore
should i just move on and let go?
maybe i really should start trying...=[

i think...

It can't be
It's not possible
That's what I told myself
There's no way that I'm in love with you
Its just jealousy
I must be lonely
I tried fooling myself
but now I can't hide it anymore
I think I love you
It must be true
Cause I miss you
When you're not around
I can't do anything
I keep thinking about Seeing how things are
I knowI'm falling for you
I didn't realize it
Now I need you
All of the time ,now I understand that
Somehow, you've already grown deep in my heart
They say we're not suited for each other
That is better for us to be friends
From one to ten We can never agree on anything
How can we be in a relationship?
When everyone says we cant last?
Their words have been in my thought
But I don't want to think about it anymore
Because i think im deeply in love with you.

I tried.

i tried to forget
im scared that i will regret
i tried to let go
but im not willing to
i tried to move on
but im afraid he will dissapear from my memories,lost and gone..
though i know if we are together we will fight
but without him i cant sleep at night
being together we will be happy but theres still alot of complication
being friends we talk more though sometimes its awkward but we are more patient
how can i tell him that i still miss him
when we are just typical friends
how can i tell him that im always thinking of him and caring for him
when i dont know what is on his mind
how can i say "iloveyou" to him
when he doesnt love me back?....

just like he once said...

the pencil alone will break just like that
but the pencil that comes in pair cant be broken
first i didnt get it at all, but in the end i understood
when im alone i can get hurt very easily
but being together and around with him i wont get hurt at all...


i'm HOPELESS,CLUELESS,BREATHLESS.