time to let go?

i can never forget because im in deep love
i wish i can fly up up above
so i can see him from a close view or even miles away..
i wanted to let go
but my heart keep telling me NO!
sometimes he just make me feel more crazy about him
i tried to get a new target, a new aim...
but i can never because my heart only sets on one boy..
though that boy sometimes treat me like a toy...
but i still didnt mind because i love him..
isit worth holding on?
isit worth crying over?
if he doesnt love me anymore
should i just move on and let go?
maybe i really should start trying...=[

i think...

It can't be
It's not possible
That's what I told myself
There's no way that I'm in love with you
Its just jealousy
I must be lonely
I tried fooling myself
but now I can't hide it anymore
I think I love you
It must be true
Cause I miss you
When you're not around
I can't do anything
I keep thinking about Seeing how things are
I knowI'm falling for you
I didn't realize it
Now I need you
All of the time ,now I understand that
Somehow, you've already grown deep in my heart
They say we're not suited for each other
That is better for us to be friends
From one to ten We can never agree on anything
How can we be in a relationship?
When everyone says we cant last?
Their words have been in my thought
But I don't want to think about it anymore
Because i think im deeply in love with you.

I tried.

i tried to forget
im scared that i will regret
i tried to let go
but im not willing to
i tried to move on
but im afraid he will dissapear from my memories,lost and gone..
though i know if we are together we will fight
but without him i cant sleep at night
being together we will be happy but theres still alot of complication
being friends we talk more though sometimes its awkward but we are more patient
how can i tell him that i still miss him
when we are just typical friends
how can i tell him that im always thinking of him and caring for him
when i dont know what is on his mind
how can i say "iloveyou" to him
when he doesnt love me back?....

just like he once said...

the pencil alone will break just like that
but the pencil that comes in pair cant be broken
first i didnt get it at all, but in the end i understood
when im alone i can get hurt very easily
but being together and around with him i wont get hurt at all...


i'm HOPELESS,CLUELESS,BREATHLESS.

Eversince.

ever since you walk outta my heart
the real me has been hiding because we are apart
i tried to make things work for myself
but my heart just wont listen
when i see you everyday walking pass me
my heart beats faster and faster, it just wanna be free
they say followyour heart but i cant
theres so many reasons why,though its not the way i want
if i ever get the chance to start things from scratch
i would take it and in the end we will be the perfect match

Heartless you.

She thinks of you everyday
She misses you in every single way
She told me that you are her first
She loves you more than anyone does
Both of you looked perfect for each other
Everyone started talking about your relationship but nothing to you guys bothers
You both were unstoppable
Your love for each other was so sweet and memorable
The way she tells me about it
I was so happy for her
I always thought you were perfect for her but in the end you still became the jerk
You left her all alone in the darkness
Left her feeling the pain and sadness
You just went fooling around with other chicks
Smoking and drinking with your peeps
Seeing you makes me feel disgusted
Cause you changed so much till i dont regconize you
Now i will never forgive you for breaking her heart too
Someday you will realise it was a big mistake and will regret because you left her without saying goodbye.


written for my babe (littlegirllost)

lying to myself + clueless

im lying to myself that the world will never end,
im lying to myself that everyone is nice and kind and always a helping hand,
im lying to myself that fairytales does really exist and everyone will have their happily ever after,
im lying to myself that life has no sadness,only joy and laughters,
im lying to everyone whenever they ask me who i love and i'll answer them no one,
but deep inside my heart, there is someone!

isit worth it?crying over you,
do you know how much it hurts? if only you knew,
i have to try to face my fears,
which is smiling at you whenever you are near,
dont even know if you think im weird,
maybe you are talking about me behind my back with your peers,
i dont know what else to think,
i hope everything can go according to me but that will only happen when the world is pink!




~wrote this in maths class~ bored bored mah 0_0

♥

the stars are still shining,♥
when my heart is breaking,♥
i dont know what is going on, ♥
but there must be something wrong,♥
i have to solve this mystery,♥
by looking back into history,♥
everytime i think of you,♥
i wished you were doing the same thing too,♥
thinking of me,♥
remembering the time when there was a "we",♥
i cant breathe!♥
without you i just cant live,♥
my heartbeat keep going faster and faster and it cant be stop,♥
sooner or later its gonna pop!♥
everyone ask me to forget about the past,♥
some even say forget bout it fast!♥
i told them to stop forcing me because its impossible,♥
because everytime i see you its unstoppable!♥
my love for you is too strong,♥
why cant you just play along?♥
to make me feel better,♥
i remember writing you the one last letter,♥
that says im sorry we were not meant to be,♥
i 100% regretted writing that! how stupid of me!♥
"you're over him right?right?" they asked,♥
"erhh, yeah!yeah!" i lied because saying the truth will be the hardest task,♥
acting like im actually seriously over you and the past,♥
but inside my heart nothing will be forgotten especially the memories of me and you that will last,♥
how do i say those three words, I LOVE YOU , isit this?♥
yes it is and i really do and now you know it, lastly, this is sealed with a kiss♥

The Apple..

This is an Apple which is not the same like other apples..
this Apple is special,or shall i say "one of a kind"?...
the outside may just look normal to you..
but the inside is the real side of an Apple you never knew..
This is an Apple which have true feelings
The heart cant be cut by anyone,only the true love of the Apple..
This is an Apple...
A very sweet Apple full with hugs and kisses..
A very special Apple that knows how to love..
An apple which needs alot of care and love...
If theres no love the Apple will turn into mixture of bitter,poisonous and sour apple..
A very bitter Apple with tears and a hole..
A poisonous Apple filled with anger and jealousy..
A sour Apple with moody moods...
In the end it'll become rotten and all the hardwork of raising the Apple is gone...
So, if you recieve this Apple means that you are lucky..
Take care of it..dont throw it...love it..and dont let worms grow on it...

enjoy the moment..

I dont want to regret anything that i've done
good or bad i still wont because whats done is done
we'll never know when is the end of the world or everything
so lets enjoy the moments we spent together before theres nothing left
take a deep breath , inhale and exhale, relax and just breathe
we'll hold hands and walk through the bridge of love
when we reach a point we'll realised its not even the end yet
it was just the beginning and we'll keep on moving foward till the end
eventhough we might go seperate ways but at least we know that our hearts was ONE before..
just spending time with your loved ones is the greatest thing about life
feeling the love,giving the love , recieving the love and most importantly appreciating the love..

Swans...

Trying to fold swans
not going to stop till i fold tonnes
im thinking and think while folding
i fold and fold nonstop till i found out the box was full
i realised that i've already folded so much without myself knowing
i guess my mind was in a different world
thinking about you im sure
so now you know that the swans i folded has meanings
and most of it is full of my feelings

please dont go..

What would I do if you leave?
I'd miss you, I believe
That's what I'd do if you leave
So I'm begging you please!
Dont leave me here..
Please stay a bit longer
For I may see you again never
And you leaving isn't for the better
Surely I'd miss you sooner or later
Everyday I miss you more and more
It makes my heart feel so sore
Thinking of the way things were,
I'd like to go back to the times we had before..

You..

If i am stuck on an island forever and only can take 1 person with me i'd take you..
If today was my last day on earth i'd spend my last hours with you..
If there was such thing as forever i would want to be with you forever and ever..
If you let me pick my prince charming among every guys on earth ..i'd still pick you..
If you ask me who i am willing to die for...i'd say you..
I'll go through whatever it takes just to be with you..

ahhh.

Looking at the sky
Its starting to turn grey
Just like my current mood
Sitting here staring into the sky thinking like a fool
The leaves from the tree is slowly falling to the ground
Just like me feeling down...
Thinking of my past ~
Which has already rust..
I take a look at the pretty pictures that we took
Those reminded me about the egg that i boiled without looking into the cookbook
Turns out that the eggs weren't well cooked~
Oppsy, how embarassing but you didnt mind...
And thats what made you shined, in my eyes..
Thats the past , nothing elese to be said..
I know i am very desperate...
But i cant help myself...
You're just like chocolate..
I'm addicted to you...
Dont know what to think...
Have no more clue..

Wish to be anything but me.

I wish i can be a glue
So i can be stuck to you
I wish i can be your mirror
So i will be able to see you everyday
I wish i can be your cup
So you can press your lips against me everyday
I wish i can be your pillow
So i can feel your hugs everyday
I wish i can be your instincts
So i can tell you that your true love is just always there around you
I wish i can be your Cinderella
So i can be with the Prince Charming(YOU) forever and we can live our happily ever after together...

I wish i can be anything but me...

thank you for everything

I just wanna thank you for...

Giving me your heart for a short period of time, I love that you were only mine
Giving me your big warm hugs,I felt so safe just being around your arms which is protecting me from getting harm
Giving me your sweet kisses which just make me misses you more everytime
Holding my hand tight to proof that you will never let go of me so easily
Spenging your times just with me and bringing me to your friends parties,i never felt left out when im with you
Making me happy, just being around you i am able to laugh and smile alot, you just make me feel the happiest, baby
Making me feel what real love is, relationships are not always happy, theres always sad parts like when we fight, and for the first time in my life i cried for a guy because i love him

Last but no least...
Making me able to be myself all the time around you..you made me experience so many types of feelings eventhough not all is good but i still love every moment we spent together..You made me discover the real ME..

Now its all over and its time to let go and say goodbye to the past but i wont because i never want any endings between us. I will keep dreaming of our past and remind myself there used to be a WE...

And i loved you very much and my feelings for you still never changed till now...

i'll be here.

I'll be here if you need someone to listen to your problems
I'll be here if you need someone to keep you away from boredom
I'll be here if you need someone to always tell you the truth
I'll be here if you want me to be and i wont dissapear like other girls do on you *poof*
I'm always with you
No matter where you go
Because you have my heart
A heart that cant be found anywhere else..not even WalMart..
Hope you keep it safe and dont throw it..
Because it's fragile and once it breaks it wont fit..

Dont go...

Im trying to forget
Trying to give you up
I will never regret
But my tears are already filled in a cup..

Still cant let go of your heart
You probably threw away mine
I tried everything to make it better
But it will never ever be fine..

Wondered if you are a playboy
Said that you love me from the very beginning
I fell for your trap and you had me going
In the end , i knew to you im just your old lame toy..

This is too much
Have you ever thought how i felt?
You can say words that can make me touched
You can make my world perfect and my heart would melt

Why cant you make it last forever?
You said i'll be only yours
So just dont go breaking my heart whenever or whatever
Im just waiting for the time to pass hours after hours..

Looking back into the past
I really dont want anything to end so fast!
Theres so many reason for you to stay..Soo many!
Please just stay here beside me baby...

Make me believe in fairytales once again...

rescue me...

Hey boy! Its me!
Why cant you see?
Sitting here silently just waiting for you
Hoping you will come rescue me
From my nightmares that im facing
Hoping you can take me somewhere far far away
Japan! USA! Paris!Or even Norway!
Just not anywhere near here
So we wont have to fear
To be together..
I wont care where we go
I wont care what they'll do
I just want to be back into your arms
Then i can finally feel safe and warm
Please dont keep me waiting
I will keep praying for the day you'll take me out of my nightmares..
And be my Prince Charming....

OUR Love Story.

WRITTEN BY: ME AND THE PRETTY.LITTLE.LOST.GIRL


Hot, cool, pretty, that's how we are,
All the guys treat us like super stars.
Flirting, blushing, crushing on boys,
Treating them just like toys!

In our lives, then you came.
And our lives are never the same.
Around you, i found myself,
You're the most important one,
not health nor wealth.

For the first time, we're seriously in love with someone,
We're obsess over you though we just knew you for 2 short months.

You entered our lives, changed our worlds,
You told us we're not just ordinary girls.
We dont want anything not even pearls.
We just want your heart and your love.

You guys are so lovely,
Made us felt every minute with you is worthy,
We were so innocent,thought you were our prince,
But you're just devils with angel wings.

You walk outta our hearts just like that,
Leaving us here in the dark,
alone and sad...
After all that fun you've had,
You threw us away just like that!

never the same!

Chocolate,Roses,Teddy bears
Things that other guys can get me
But I dont care!
Its never the same without you
Now my dreams willnever come true
Thinking of you everynight
Wishing to turn back time just to erase our fights
I love you, yes i really do!
But you probably dont feel the same way too
Crying my heart out
Trying to control myself from being too loud
I dont want anyone to hear
They'll spread rumors , i fear!
I ask for nothing from you..
I just want you Boo!

Damn.

Life's miserable
Thinking about it makes it more horrible
Listening to the people's laughters while sitting here feeling the sadness
Have no more Ups, all theres left is down
Just so many things to make me frown!
My brain is dead and my heart aches..
It kills to think that the would is changing so fast!..
Or isit me?

Rain

September 1, 2:50AM, raining heavily and a poem struck my mind.

Looking at the rain
Hoping it would take away my pain
Lying down on my bed
Pictures of you flashing thru my head
Hugging my pillow tightly, Imaganing it was you and thinking you would hug me back softly
I still gain nothing by just thinking
Just letting time fly thru me
Trying to sleep to live my dreams..
And whenever i do.. the alarm goes BEEP!BEEP!BEEP!
Back to the real world
Thinking about it just makes me wanna hide
And never to step outside
i know hiding is not going to help me
Just gotta keep moving foward and keep dreaming of who i wanna be.

HIS.

broken love

Im wishing that i never met you
So i wont have to go through all this pain
Im thankful that i've met you because of the something you made me gained
No, its not just friendship, its more than that..its Love..
You made me understand what love is
You made me realised what i lived for..
You made my whole world perfect...
You made me able to just be myself around you...
But then nothing lasts forever
You broke my heart and my world fell apart
Just like that, its all over!
I never wanted this to happen, Never!
But theres nothing i can change
Guess its just meant to bethis way...
OHMYGAWD, how gay! =(

Dreams and Reality

Desperate to stay in my dreams
Fearing to face reality
Dreaming makes me hapy because in there im loved by my honey
Waking up is something scary just like eating posionous berries
Because in reality im just his enemy
If my dreams can come to reality I will never ask for anything else again
I just want to be with him and thats all I ask for
And it came true! In my dreams
How sad,speechless,dissapointing..
Now theres nothing else to be said, all i can do is dream bout him everyday and keep wishing one day dreams will come to reality...

Which is never gonna happen =( because reality can never be planned and dreams will forever stay as dreams...

stranger.

you used to be my angel...
but now you're just a stranger...
you told me you love me...
you told me you care for me...
but now, you just hardly talk to me...
you told me you'll love me forever...
you told me you'll even die for me...
but now i know its all just a lie...
you told me you cant live without me...
you told me you cant breathe without me...
but now why are you doing this to me...
you're the reason why im living...
but now you're the reason why im dying...
for me you're just a lie...
for me you're just a stranger...

memories.

When im feeling down you cheer me up...
When im sad you're always there to comfort me...
When im happy you would be happy too..
Theres something different about you that will always make me feel so safe...
The way you hold my hand...
The way you hug me...
The way you talk to me...
The way you look into my eyes and tell me that you love me...
These are the things that no one except you can make me feel like im in heaven...
Being with you my life felt like a perfect fairytale with only happy endings...
But i knew i couldnt count on fairytales to be yours forever....
The king and queens broke us apart just like that...
I've failed to be your princess...
We had no more future together...
All theres left is the past memories...
They told me that theres alot of princes out there waiting for me but i just wont listen...
I still look at the photos we took together and everytime i stare at it...tears will roll down my cheek...
Though its been months, i still cant forget you completely...
But I hope you live a happy and great life and wish that i will be part of your memory forever because you'll always be in mine.

trying to forget...

Sometimes I still think back of the past...
oh how i wish it last...
I know that wouldnt happen anymore...
that is why my heart tore...
I hope you know that I have always loved you from the beginning...
my love for you was never a lie...
Till now I still dont know how much you loved me or whether you loved me for me...
I couldnt help myself but to think that you would be there to catch me when I fall for you...
I know I am suppose to just forget about you but my heart will never allow me to...
I just keep reminding myself that you already moved on and all the past in my head had to be gone...

Never

Never say i love you,if you dont really care...
Never talk about feelings, if they arent really there...
Never hold my hand, if you are thinking of someone else...
If you're going to break my heart, never say you are going to...
If you dont plan to start, never look into my eyes...
If all you do is lie, never ever say you will be my perfect guy...
Never say Hi if you really mean goodbye...
If you really mean forever,then say you will try...
Never say forever because forever makes me cry...

Forever No more..

Forever, you promised..
Forever, a lie..
You promised the moon and the stars in the sky...
You'd stolen her heart, then left her alone...
You were so cold,it chilled to the bone...
You left her with nothing but tears and a past...
When you said "I love you"...
She thought it would last...
But "I love you" found an ending...
The 'us' and 'we' no more...
You said you didn't mean to but you hurt her to the core...
So she guess that she's the loser...
Cause you've found someone new...
But she's still here, still all alone...
Just crying over you...

Almost... Almost...

Use to think about you everyday...
Just cant seem to get you off my mind...
Keep telling myself i'm over you,i'm over you...
But my heart is telling me that im actually lying...
I messed up, yes i know i did...
You forgave me and told me that you understoood....
I said we could still be friends...
Eventhough i knew it will never be the same...
Its been awhile now...
And nothings changed no matter what i do...
I just keep on telling myself...
That i'm almost over you...

☻☻ƒ0r §〒яawbєrr￥☻☻

This is the 8th year i know you...
We always laugh together and also argue...
We weren't very close during the first few years...
But now you are one of my dear...
You are the most different friend i ever met...
And the only one who is really quiet...
You have a very different style...
That comes with a nice bright smile...
I'll always trust you and believe you...
Because most of the things you say is always true...
and i think EMO is cool...=)


<3 you Strawberry.

❤ ❤ ƒ0я ۝яαηgє❤ ❤

She's so talented...
She can sing, dance, act, play piano, play guitar draw and also write interesting stories...
She'll always be one of my dearys forever =)

I've known her for 7 years...
First few years weren't very good because we kept on fighting with each other...
I was immature and didnt know what i was thinking...
I told myself to give myself and her a chance to be friends and i did...
I was finally doing the right thing...
Since then, that chance i gave brought me a new friend...
A true friend who i can trust and count on...
She helped me all the way when i was facing difficulties...
We fought quite alot, but thats what friends does...
We fight, we quarrel because all of us have different way of doing things...
But, rather than all the fighting and quarrelling...
We had our happy times like laughing our heads off till our tears roll down our cheek and get tummyaches...
Sleepovers at peach's house and telling each other personal stories/secrets...
And so much more...
Theres just too much happy memories too say...
So i cant say it all here >.<...
but...
I believe that our friendship will last forever n forever~
Because no matter what i'll always lurve her...

☮☮for wooper puffer☮☮

Puffer~~

i've known you for 5 years+ already...
the 1st year we never even spoke...
the 2nd year we never even spoke...
the 3rd year we still never even spoke...
the 4th year we talked abit...
since we didnt talk so much, so i dont really know you at all...
but
this is the 5th year i've known you..
and we finally spoke alot!...
we talked so much and laughed alot...
eventhough you can be very annoying and make me geram alot...
BUT...you're still very funny and very cute =)...
and i totally forgot why i nicknamed you puffer!...
but i think that name really suits you~...
i want to thank you for that time when you "belanja" me and peach movies...
i like talking to you cause you are very understanding for a guy >.<...
you are one of my best guyfren ever!...

-- "you rawk my world" -- you super cute/cool wooper puffer! xD...



*=] just for you puffer =]*

★★ ƒ-0-r ρ-3-α-ⓒ-h ★★

The first day i saw her...
She was shy,quiet and innocent ...
I was too scared to talk to her...
Because I scared she didnt like me...
And will be called the worst friend ever...

It was a saturday when we first hang out...
Not in the school but in a big kiddy playground...
We played "tag" and somehow she always catch me first...
We laughed whenever she caught me...
That day we talked alot about each other...
And a friendship was built...


I remember all the parties we went together...
V'Day, we danced all night and had a blast!...
26th of April, that was my very first sleepover and it was in her house...
We went on double dates and everything...
We're always on the same team, helping each other out...

Whenever we fight, we will try to solve things out...
And in the end everything will be back to normal again...
We're both humans..we have feelings..
When I'm sad she'll lend me her shoulder to cry on...and i'll do the same thing for her too...
And when one of us are having problems...
We'll give each other encouragements and advices...

We had our Ups and Downs...
We learned all about each others likes and dislikes...
Also each others characteristic...
Both of us are very different but somehow kind of similar girls...
Thats what made our friendship so unique...

She'll always give me a big HUG everyday,
On break times we will listen to our Itouch while telling each other stories*...
Laugh together whenever one of us crack jokes...
Oh, All the happy times we spent together...

She is a talented girl...
Who plays piano and guitar...
Who writes poems that are awesome like no one else does...
She is my best friend...
My babe...
and...
She's my Sister from another Mother/Father. xD




~Words cant explain our friendship because its impossible...~


<3 you Peach.

♫ ♫ ƒ0r ⓜαиⓖσ♫ ♫

Dedicated to my sister for her birthday on 27th September.


Hey Sister, you're getting older...
Soon enough you're going college...
Hope you wont forget your little sis...
Who is sitting here writing this for you...

You're my only sister that I'll love forever...
You're the only person that I can count on...
You make me feel so lucky to have a sister like you...
How can I ever thank you...

Eventhough we fight, I'll always love you...
You're the best sister that I could ask for...
Even when you treat me like your slave!...

Anyways..

Happy Birthday,Celia!
Hope you have a great day and never ever forget this thing... =)





~suppose to be a song with guitar but nevermind! make it a "Story" can already =) ~

♥σ☆υ☆Я ☆ⓕ☆я☆3☆n☆s☆h☆i☆p♥

To my Dearys* <3 you all =) ...
We have been through so much...
You've made me laugh,smile,happy and even touched...

I am sorry for all those misunderstanding...
I didnt know what i was actually thinking...

Thats why we used to fight and quarrel alot...
Luckily now our friendship have become a knot...

The knot that cannot be untied...
No matter how hard others try...

Though we go our own ways sometimes...
But I'll never feel left behind...

Our friendship will last forever...
We'll always stick together...

Because you are already part of my heart...
No matter how far we are apart...

☺

Her Love Story.

My life was once like a fairytale,
Just me and him together,
I didnt care what others said,
That time i thought my life was perfect,
And nothing will ruin it,
but...
My fairytale didnt last long,
Everything fell apart in just a day,
I was crushed, hurt, heart-brokened,
All i did was just think about him and miss every second we had spent together,
I know we were not meant to be from the start,
But i tried and in the end i failed to make my love last,
I told myself its life and i just gotta move forward,
I tried really hard to and I did,
Eventhough he still comes in to my mind sometimes,
I'll just take it as a good memory and nothing more than that.

I wish one day i will be able to go back to that fairytale world,
With my one true love.